am i that free

missed u all...

2009-05-29T20:14:00.000-07:00

it's been quite sometimes to blog... out of sudden, looking at the old photos and really missed u all my youthful friends. always salute to your dedication to club with such a compassionate heart. u set an amazing model and testimony to many teens out there even to the adults...continue to enjoy the time there... take time to build up a strong friendship...

a short note to encourage you all...enjoy urself for the jun holidays knowing all the hard work you have put in into the mid-year exam. Special prayer to those who need to take 'O' and "N" level this year. Study hard and i'm sure you will score well. Not forgetting the boys too and the senior. Pray that the one in army is coping well too.

missed u all...perhaps i shd join u all on one of the festival celebration...hmmm...food for all of u...

God blesses you all my young warriors...

what is your heart's condition?

2009-02-15T05:48:00.000-08:00

How to hear from God? - Keep your heart pure
Matt 5:8 - Blessed are the PURE in HEART, for they will SEE GOD.
Prov 4:23 - Above all these, GUARD your HEART, for it is the wellspring of LIFE.

Who can change your heart? Yourself - Nope...
Ezekiel 36:26 - I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.

2 reasons for guarding our heart
1) If not, our heart will be hardened. Becoing stubborn, rebellious, insensitive, loss of compassion.
2) only God can change and renew our heart.

How come about heart become harden?
1) we commit sin
2) guilty in wrong sense - lose of self-esteem and always feel defeated
3) our heart is hurt and we guide against and so our heart is closed...

This message speaks to my heart...how about you?

contentment

2009-01-12T04:50:00.000-08:00

was chatting with my colleagues and sharing on survey experience. he came across many poor families. every meal is only bread or biscuits. an wheel-chaired bound man living alone in an extremely dirty house. families with kids with no proper enviornment to live and study in. arent we blessed? shall we pause n appreciate and be contented? know what is our wants and needs and spend within our limits. save for future for emergency. study and work hard to bear fruits. beside sufficient in material, emotion and spiritual filled is important too. r u?

What Christmas meant to you?

2008-12-24T20:55:00.000-08:00

Thank God for the preaching on birth of Christ in Christmas Eve Service. Luke 2:1-7 - The Birth of Jesus.

Luke 2:7 - and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.

It never strike me that impactful that "there's no room" for Jesus during his birth. This world belongs to HIM but upon HIS birth, people don't recognise and don't even provide a room for HIM. Do we then have a room for Jesus in our heart through our daily life? Do we help others to build a room in themselves for Jesus?

Pause and Ponder and may we bless with vision and dreams for the work of Christ in 2009.

有一件礼物

2008-12-15T05:46:00.000-08:00

this worship song speaks deep in my heart on sun service. in particular, the lyrics - "如果你不珍惜，机会难留，礼物虽然好，如果你不要，你怎么能够得到，怎么能得到？" . Most of times, we don't treasure what's around us. We simply take things for granted and when we lost it, then we feel regret or sad. Pause, observe and ponder is there a present just next to you? Treasure it and don't let it passed...you will miss it and regret...

有一件礼物，你收到没有？眼睛看不到，你心会知道
这一件礼物，心门外等候，是为了你准备，别人不能收
亲爱的朋友，你是否想到，马槽的婴孩是为你而来
亲爱的朋友，你是否了解，最好的礼物，是人子主耶稣！

生命有限，时光也会走，如果你不珍惜，机会难留
礼物虽然好，如果你不要，你怎么能够得到，怎么能得到？

they are unique

2008-12-14T04:11:00.000-08:00

it's so amazing and enjoyable to be with them. i see myself as them dur my teenage. worrying on studying, frustrating on friendship complication, quick and bad tempered, funny and wild, bold and courageous, stubborn and rebellious, curious and anxious on love relationship...and many many more. they brought me laughter but they made me worry too. worrying their study, worrying their priority in life, worrying on their growing process. each of them r unique and dear to me. at times, i am frustrated of myself not able to help them much at all. at times, i doubt myself what i have been providing for so many years. at times, i feel so anxious and frustrated to the extent of giving up.

but God reminded me all these:
1) God loves them more than me
Luke 11:11 - 13 "Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? 12Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? 13If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!"

2) It's all God loves on them and not me
Psalm 127:1 Unless the LORD builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain.

3) God commands to do it good
Ecclesiastes 9:10a Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might

May each of them experience God love personally...
Special prayer to a teen who wanted to do well in school. May wisdom be upon him.

memories upon memories

2008-12-07T21:09:00.000-08:00

it's been sometimes that i blog...struggling for dream, vision, reason and passion to stay on...but i still couldn't hear a definite answer from HIM and now it's dec...last month of 2008. it's really tough since aug when i am back from US. All things seem to turn up-side-down. But i prayed for a "change". Perhaps that's the "change".

Thankful for the memories - chalet was fun and a memorable one. thanks to the game masters...thanks to the chefs...thanks to him who always supports and blesses. thanks to Jesus for this event...HE gives me strength, belief and perservance to organise this chalet. It's my prayer that our teens will become our future leaders...haha so that i can retired...

Thankful for the half-marathon that i have completed. it's a training for endurance. i remember that i was getting so impatience when all things happened likewise in aug. i couldn't focus, become short-tempered, anxious and impatience. Training for this run helps me to become more patience, determined, perservance and focus back to Jesus. Thanks for him training with me. Without that, i dont think i can complete the race. It's really a long run close to 3hrs and it's HIM that HE gives me the strength and endurance to end the race. It's not how a race is started but how it ended. Just like we christian, it's matter how we end our race being a christian in this world.

Thanks to Jesus for all the memories...

they are special

2008-10-12T05:10:00.000-07:00

an outspoken extrovert girl, cheerful most of times, confidence of herself, treasure friendship, responsible for her study, independently to take care of herself, soft-hearted, inquisitive, sentimental, observant, loyal, a grow up girl who knows how to treasure and filial to her family, a heart for the needy children, a girl who love HIM.

quiet boy, shy, obedience, willing to help to the needy children, soft-hearted, simply, contented. but lack of confidence and pessimistic.

bubbie girl, cheerful, mind on her own, a heart for the needy children, fun to be with, responsible, sporty, trendy, dare to take up challenges, a girl with soft-heart.

a senior, cheerful, positive, soft-hearted, a kind heart for needy children, role model for the children, supportive and obedience, willing to serve and provide, mature and sensible, grateful, surely providing strength, support and encouragement for me.

a handsome boy, marvellous to see him mature, from quiet to sociable, from hiding behind computer to serving, from blur blur to teaching kids, shy, sporty, sensible and responsible. has a kind heart for the needy children and grateful.

they are unique, talented in their own strength. i am thankful for working alongside with them. they are many others whom i am thankful for leaving me wit great memories and teaches me to grow with them.

Perspective

2008-09-26T01:55:00.000-07:00

had a crash with my boss recently. trying my best to explain my situation, yet my boss eventually stormed out of my room. wondering whether did he really listening to my explanation or simply hearing. why he can't listen to understand the situation? sound familar, this is what i called "mindset".

everyone of us have a mindset. but some are more receptive to others' ideas/suggestions. while others, are not. person with terribly mindset have some kind of mental block. they view things/situations from their own perspective. they delibrately ignore to accept views from another perspective. In fact, in many times, situation will not be that bad if we view from a positive perspective. Here goes an interesting example:

a rich man trying to teach his son to realise how rich he is by bringing him to stay one night at a poor attap farm house. So he asked his son about the stay. The son replied:
we have 1 dog but they have 4 dogs
we have a swimming pool but they have a river of their own
we have garden but they have the whole grass field all to them
we see a sky but they have stars and sky

is it amazing, an extreme perspective from his father...

Law of Attraction

2008-09-26T01:47:00.000-07:00

What is "Law of Attraction"? Simply means you are the magnet, whoever attracts to you are persons who are similar to you. So what kind of person you are? introvert and detailed - pause and think are most of your friends exhibit similar characteristics as you. extrovert and out-going - hmm...so u do most of your friends right? hahaha...if u are self-centered and arrogant - hmmm...perhaps u have even no friends to compare....

Law of Attraction has a basic principle to tell us to be positive. A positive person will attract positive friends, fun-loving. A positive person has the 'power' to turn trials around. A positive person has the fighting spirit to let thoughts becoming things. So be a positive person - fighting.

So how to be a positive person even at times of trials? How to see things from different perspective when u are in bad situation? Consciously remind yourself to pray and seek God for help. How wonderful if we all can be positive at all times.

confusion state

2008-09-17T01:47:00.000-07:00

Jeremiah 5: 21 - "...you foolish and senseless people, who have eyes but do not see, who have ears but do not hear..." Am I a fool? Am I worse than the two blind man (Matt 20:29)? Blessed with eyes but yet cant see. Blessed with ears but yet can't hear.

perhaps we dont "click"...

2008-08-19T18:14:00.000-07:00

knowing a friend for almost 6-7 years. is it long enuf to establish a deeper friendship? i hope too but it does not seem to turn out to be. we seem reserved, uncomfortable, open to share in communication. each time, how i hope that we can be close friend sharing all things under the sun. but there's an invisible barrier between us. somehow stopping us from sharing. perhaps we dont really that 'click' to be very very close friend which i hope too. but this friend is "wonderful" - helpful, caring and thoughtful...thanks my friend, you are really like my brother. let's teared down the barrier...

do i know

2008-08-12T03:28:00.000-07:00

it's terrible to be awaken from dream abruptly by storm. one after another. tis is my first time, feeling extremely lost and devastated. realising the truth - heart-broken, losing the passion - time to move on, depart from two leaders of my life - devastated and lost. simply can't see the path ahead of me. simply can't hear the voice. like a man stuck in the cross-junction but yet still have to move on bec life still moves on. it's tormenting...it's heart-breaking...it's lonely...it's fearful...it's devastating...

there's a time to mourn. there's a time for sabbath. there's a time for trial. there's a season for change. we all know. but where is the time of faith? i know...

are you hearing HIS voice?

2008-07-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

During the ‘children circle’ in service today, the pastor was playing the game ‘simon say’ infront of the whole congregation. At the end of the game, he told the children that just like the game, we need to learn to listent o God's voice. I love this analogy. Though it’s a simple game, it speaks clearly and loudly on the principle of hearing God’s voice. Do we know how to hear from God’s voice? Are we searching for hearing from God’s voice? Are we like infants learning to hear from God’s voice? I am learning too...

Matthew 11:25-26 “At that time Jesus said, “I thank you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and the intelligent and have revealed them to infants; yes, Farther, for such was your gracious will.”

if you know you got to do, dont do it right

2008-07-02T16:43:00.001-07:00

"if you know you got to do, don't do it right" sound weird as most of times, we want to do it right. This was given by my lecturer taught by his lecturer who is the well-known sampling statistician Kish. He actually referring to sampling design. There's flexibility in sampling design bec of different cicrumstance. Principle should be applied but procedure should adapt to cicrumstance and not to be perfect to that extent to 'kill' you. Surely this is true in sampling design. Interesting right...I guess this apply to life too. Dont let perfectionism kill you.

finally can take a breathe

2008-06-28T15:09:00.000-07:00

well done children and teens for the sport day... i really share the joy with you all...:)

time flies and it's one month since i am here. this week is a terrible week bec of project, homework and test due on friday and i thank God that it's over. doing project with multi-national students are not easy...believe me...our team has from spore (that's me) - the kiasu one...from thailand (my buddy) - the blur one because she is weak in the course and due to language barrier she didn't contribute at all....from south africa - the talk much and do less...from columbia - the one who dont care at all. students are with different attitudes to study here. Because it's a summer course, some of the students just want a pass and dun really want to put in effort. As such, i end up leading and doing most of the work. i am not a 'natural' leader but God has always put me in many situations to lead. HE surely has a purpose for me but most of the time, the purpose is fulfilled in situation that we dislike:) Nevertheless, i put in my effort to complete the project regardless whether they wanting to contribute bec the time is really short. Finally, the subject is completed and i look forward to start another new subject in july.

life is still as peaceful as it is. We went to "Henry Ford" a museum on 'vehicle' tog as a class org by our lecturer. it's an interesting place... there's a part on history on chocolate (my favorite food) and i love it. we set off in the morning and drive through Detroit. Detroit is about 80% of south african american and the place is not comparable as ann arbor. On the way back, we saw one side of Canada just separated by a lake. Planning to visit toronto and niagara falls but hope i can go. next friday is a public holiday and so have 3 days including sat and sun, so hope that we can have a short trip:)

missed my family, my friends, my teens, my 'children'. May God blessing upon you all.

did we cry out for faith to believe

2008-06-21T20:15:00.000-07:00

Not through work but through faith we receive our salvation. Where does faith comes from? Blessing from God...So did we cry out to God for this faith from HIM to believe HIM?

an unique experience in this tranquil town

2008-06-20T21:29:00.000-07:00

ann arbor is an university town. when i first heard of uni town, i couldnt really visualise it until i see it myself. it's a small tranquil town with uni buildings surrounding almost everywhere. most of the people here are students and bec of summer, most of them are out of town. not much activities to do here but i like this place so far- peaceful and simple.

life has been good for me so far and i thank God for the blessing. though at time stress of assignments, projects and tests. it's interesting to have classmates from different countries. with diff background and culture, we learn to get tog and study tog. sometimes, we have joke out of the way we speak. my buddy is from thailand, a nice, simple and petite girl. she is definitely my lunch mate as we share our lunch most of the times bec the portion is too big. usually, we lunch tog with few other guys from italy, brazil, south africa, chile, egypt.

tonite, we went for a movie. it's kinda of surprise to me bec it's free seating. we took a bus, about 20 mins and we reach a 'ulu' place and have to walk a bit of distant to reach there. in spore, public transport is like one step away from our destination. the public bus is considered to be quite convenient and the timing is very exact. visited their largest shopping mall "briarwood", largest supermarket "meijier" (our favourite place to buy our groceries ), art festival, first Border bookshop, art street and my neighbourhood. it's a town here and have to lower down the expectation on malls, image their shopping mall is only like first floor of raffles city.

but students here have a different life style from us. early in the morning, you will see students playing freezbi, dancing infront of the libray, sitting under the tree under hot sun studying, chatting and sitting outside coffee shop to study instead of air-con library. see the contrast...

people here friendly too. usually they will greet you "how are you doing" or "have a good one" after you have bought something from the shop. "have a good one means have a good day". almost very where there's sign on "M" stands for Michigan and it's always "blue and yellow" the color of their flag. we dont see much export goods and most of them sell things printed with 'michigan'.

i'm glad with where i stay. about 5-10 mins to my morning class. the morning walk to class is nice. afternoon class again is about 10 min from my place. most of my neighbour are uni students and only a few in bec most of them back to their home town dur summer. clean and comfortable place to stay in but too dim and got to buy a table lamp. though it's still a bit dim but i think i have adapted to it.

the weather is unpredictable. it's been quite hot in the 1st week when i came but cold for the last 2 weeks. now it's hot again. my lecturer said that this is ann arbor weather but it's kinda of unusual to be so cold this year in summer. i'm surprise too bec temperature can be as low as 12 deg celsius in summer and for past 1 week, it's been raining.

people eat a lot of mexican food, sandwiches, burger and pizza. the usual western food. usu i will cook for my dinner - porridge with chicken and lots of veg or macoroni. if i'm lazzy then i would be having instant soup and pizza. there's few asian restaurant like korean, indian and japanese but they are not fantastic.

look forward to next fri going to a ford after test...but must study first for the test:)

Thank God for the wisdom, strength, protection, joy and peace. It's God who bless me with this unique experience in ann arbor and i am really thankful.

unique encounter

2008-06-15T08:39:00.000-07:00

this morning i went to a church just a few blocks from my apartment. It's a congregation church, member of about 800. The communion started at 930am and so i went. It was held in a small chapel, peaceful with song played by a sister. I was surprised bec back in spore, all members came tog for holy communion. but right here, there were only a handful (less than 20) was present. Perhaps bec they have holy communion every sun. Nevertheless, it was a quiet time with God.

Then at 10am, we have worship and sermon. There were not many people, perhaps about 100. Today it's Father Day and there's an invited band "Cherry Hill Brothers". Again, the worship is not like one I had in Spore. Only 2 hymns were sang ("Faith of our Fathers", "Lord, dismiss us with blessing"). No one clapping, dancing or singing in holy spirit. But only standing and singing the hymns. Then, the pastor invites all the little children infront of the altar and they sing in circle (Children's Circle). The pastor has a short message "Be the light" with them. Telling them to be a light for Jesus and we as parents will support, love, care and help them to be the light. It was warm hearted. Short, sweet and memoriable moments for the children and parents. Afterwhich the children left for kids scripture school while we continue to worship.

The pastor pearched (not much) on Jonah. He asked us to ponder on "how we live in faith community? How marvelous and uncondition relationship we have from God. " He will continue to pearch on this sermon the next week.

It's a simple and peaceful worship. No special lighting, sound effect, videoing, dancing. No special need to purposely ask for holy spirit (anyway, it's always presence with us). No emotional stirring. But peaceful and loving, warm-hearted and quietly in the presence of God.

aunties can be playful too

2008-05-24T07:38:00.000-07:00

Thank God for the volunteers, teens, children and parents for making the BBQ an enjoyable one. I have much fun not really with the children but with their mothers/grandmothers today. They can be as playful as the children. They share their angers at home but also jokes around. "Execuse me" become a secret between me and them because of one joke. I really have fun and i am thankful. Will miss them all. But thank God for leaving such a happy memory with me...

Teens, all the best and is your turn to take on more leadership role. I am always proud of you all.

a little girl has grown up

2008-05-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

three cheers to a little girl whom i know for many years. she has grown up, mature, sensible and a wise girl. she treasures what she has, understand her circumstances and appreciate what she has. she works for what she wants to have...most imptly, she establish a closer relationship with HIM. three cheers to this young lady now...

Give Thanks

2008-04-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

hectic for the past few weeks...new project, new staffs, new subject to learn...all "new" and was feeling almost breathless...But I am thankful because HE refresh me each time in club. HE shows me not by my own might but on HIS, all things are possible. Usually, it's when I am most unprepared for club that HE blesses me and shows me nothing is impossible with HIM. Though circumstance may persist, I give thanks. I also give thanks to my teens for encouragement.

Luke 18: 27
Jesus replied, "What is impossible with men is possible with God."

1 Thessalonians 5: 16
Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

Luke18: 16
But Jesus called the children to him and said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.

How HE lives as a boy?

2008-04-17T09:00:00.001-07:00

A youthful bubby teen shared with me this - "Discipline is to Do something what you Dislike". At times, we dislike to do things that against our wish or inconvenience to us. But most importantly, we must know and be clear of what is good or bad for us. Jesus at the age of 12 knows what He needs to do for the world. Perhaps we can learn from the story in Bible. Read below.

From Bible, there's little mention about Jesus when He was a boy. But Bible tells us He was “filled with wisdom" and He was “in favor with God and man.” Luke 2-52

Luke2:41-52 - The Boy Jesus at the Temple
41Every year his parents went to Jerusalem for the Feast of the Passover. 42When he was twelve years old, they went up to the Feast, according to the custom. 43After the Feast was over, while his parents were returning home, the boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem, but they were unaware of it. 44Thinking he was in their company, they traveled on for a day. Then they began looking for him among their relatives and friends. 45When they did not find him, they went back to Jerusalem to look for him. 46After three days they found him in the temple courts, sitting among the teachers, listening to them and asking them questions. 47Everyone who heard him was amazed at his understanding and his answers. 48When his parents saw him, they were astonished. His mother said to him, "Son, why have you treated us like this? Your father and I have been anxiously searching for you."

49"Why were you searching for me?" he asked. "Didn't you know I had to be in my Father's house?" 50But they did not understand what he was saying to them.

51Then he went down to Nazareth with them and was obedient to them. But his mother treasured all these things in her heart. 52And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men.

At age of 12, the bible shows that HE was a good boy, played with friends. HE not only loved by every one who knew Him but HE also studied history and God’s Law, from the Old Testament books for wisdom. HE is in fabor with God and men. Can we do that?

Jesus did not mean Joseph (His earthly father) when He said “my Father's House,” above. He meant God. He was a young boy, but He was very thoughtful, and He knew that there was work for Him to do in the world. He knew that His work was to teach people how His Father wants them to live. He was ready to begin His work, but it was not yet time for Him to do so. So, He went back to Nazareth with His parents. He was the same loving, obedient boy that He had always been. At twelve years old he was expected to study and work as the young men did. Every one must learn some trade. Every one must learn some kind of work by which he could earn his living. Joseph was a carpenter. He taught Jesus to do carpentry work. He taught Him how to make houses, tables, yokes for oxen, or anything made of wood.

purpose of life

2008-04-12T07:09:00.000-07:00

today we had an interesting topic over dinner. it's so exciting to see our teens grow and start to ponder on their purpose of life. hey teens, it may not be easy to discover exactly what's ur purpose of life. but do continue to search and reflect. having a clear purpose of life will surely make u an effective person; providing u a much meaningful journey, joy, direction and focus in life.

perhaps, the best way to find out our purpose of life is to ask the Creator who create us. Who is your Creator in your life? How much you know about Him so that you know why He created you (that's ur purpose of life). Isn't that interesting to search for this answer? It's my prayer that u discover your purpose of life.

Gen 1:27 - "So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. "
Rom 9:17 "For the Scripture says to Pharaoh: "I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth."
Prov 19:21 "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails. "
Psalm 127:1 "Unless the LORD builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain."

after dinner, we went to bookshop to search for our name in chinese...i really like "以斯帖". Couldn't find "谢丽尔". Saw "安迪" sound like aunty.

may it be a pleasing day upon HIM.

流泪谷 --> 欢乐谷 - From strength to strength

2008-04-06T00:15:00.000-07:00

How end our race wif God strongly? How to stay and draw strength from God? Simply develop a pilgrim mindset Psalm 84:5-7. Earth is just a temporary house and set your goal for God. Dont believe that you have done enough. Dont remains in 流泪谷 but overcome it by God's strength and grace to 欢乐谷. Trials and hardship is essential for us to experience and fully understand God's grace. Take it positively and believe that God will deliver you from your 'tears'. Draw strength from HIM and believe that HE will not keep any best from you. Are you disappointed by yourself? Are you disappointed by others? Are you even disappointed by God? Be determine and transform to 欢乐谷.

Grace - 恩典
Have similar meaning to favor and mercy. Like give someone a favor or show someone with mercy. This is done without any condition from that person. God's grace is similar but His grace is definitely much bigger. God gives us His grace unconditionally (that is without what we have done or according to our effort). So we always say "神的恩典是够我用". That is God's grace is sufficient for us to overcome all trials.

2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My (GOD) grace is sufficient for you, for my (GOD) power is made perfect in weakness."

Faith - 信念
Have similar meaning to believe. Have faith in God in all things (happy or sad) is most important. With this faith, all things are possible through God. Instead, without faith, nothing is pleasing to God.

Hebrews 11:6
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

Mark 10:27
Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God."

roller coaster - that's fun

2008-04-04T19:35:00.000-07:00

life with HIM is just like a roller coaster...up and down...the hands are there to hold u but like kid u wanted to jump up and down, wanting to explore yourself, wanting to go in different direction, wanting to be free and independent...but His hands are always there to hold u whichever direction u r heading, up or down, left or right...how thankful and how grateful...how lovely and how majestic...this is when u learn to build a closer and deeper relationship with him if you turn to hold His hands. Remember His hands are always there...

2 additional hands seem to be good but apparently not

2008-03-31T08:59:00.000-07:00

wat is it like to have someone whom u see all days but yet wif thinkings and habits different? wat is it like to have that someone who does not support u? wat is it like to have that someone become ur enemy? So scary rite.

may God bless that someone.

By His Grace

2008-03-28T09:19:00.000-07:00

in wilderness for almost 2 months. crying to God to quench my thirsty but seems in vain. i know it's my heart and not bec God din speak to me. but really thank God for today. stream of praise (SOP) came to worship in noon bef our sanctification svc at nite. without hesitation i applied for leave, though i will be attending alone and work is piling up. i am really thirsty.

thank God. HIS presence is so STRONG. tears rolled down my cheeks while i repent my sins and commit my weakness Him. He shows and guides me in my struggles, including ministry and my low self-esteem. i feel tt the stone in my heart is being lifted up. really...the worship is marvelous. SOP teaches us a lot in worshipping and we have fun. I really love it. we dance and even form a long human train worship and dance around the hall. how amazing. beside worship, SOP preaches on "attitude on worship". it really touches my heart bec i know my weakness in servicing Him. Few key phases: Attitude determines Altitude, Obedience, Fear God, Teacherable and Willingly Heart, Have Fun, By his Grace we can serve. Dont take things personally. I am really thankful bec my spirit in my rekindled. Thank you God.

In sanctification svc, we have our communion. this is the first time again to feel the STRONG Love from God. again tears rolled down my cheeks, reminded how loving and sacrificing FATHER i am blessed with. His love is so uncondition and how can i reject Him. Thank you Lord Jesus and Holy SPirit for teaching me.

By God's grace, i am thankful for He will never leave me as long as i turn to Him always. thank you deep from my heart.

a special day

2008-03-21T02:15:00.000-07:00

today is so special...

after my morning jog, i saw a couple about 50 years old. the wife sat on the swing n the husband took photo of hers. how sweet rite...

then came across many wonderful and meaningful phrases to remind me once again
1) success is measured by the degree to which our hearts are transformed thru an OBEDIENCE to Jesus Christ.
2) You don't want to provide fish but teach others to be the fisherman
3) Faith is a gift from God but is also a CHOICE
4) Faith comes from internal work with Holy Spirit and reading of Bible
5) Are u tempted to believe that following Him will lose many of the good things. It's not true - see the life of Ruth

finally, my prayer was answered on sourcing for apartment in michigan. 1st gotten a list of sublet after 1 week of waiting and 1 subletter replied my email thou i am still considering bec the rent is quite high and is a bit far fr school. pray for many replies with lower rent and nearer to school.

today is definitely special bec today is Good Friday. A day to memorate the cruxification of JESUS CHRIST. Without Him dying for our sin, our purpose of life would be meaningless. But at times, we take for granted and so it's a day to remind us once again. surely, we believe and remember even w/o this day.

which direction you are heading

2008-03-18T05:54:00.000-07:00

is your mind full of questions? no answer? can't hear anything? feeling extremely low and disappointed? started to compare and envy with others? disappointed with your creator?

how to find the answers? many nights of searching for answers...it's still so quiet. will you ever find the answer? finally, you found the answer - the one who can provide you the inner joy and peace. in fact, you know the answer almost 8 years ago. but the stubborness and human side of you purposely ignore the answer.

but at times, you just forget the answer again...just like a roller coaster. but do remember to always revert back to the answer

grace and strength upon HIM

2008-03-14T19:51:00.000-07:00

already lost count how many days since i started to cough...but my HIS grace and strength, I will have speedy recovery bec need to archor club. most imptly, dun spread my virus to the children.

am i that free

2008-03-11T03:03:00.000-07:00

hmm...am i that free to start a blog...my young friends triggered me off to start writing and this is my first post to try it out...thanks friends...

had a memorable weekends - gotten angry of one whom i don't know how he defines and treats our friendship. well i guess my expectation is too much. then met up wif old friends, chatting and laughing away. he is still so gentleman and really missed the old days but now-3 cheers to our friendship.

wif all the meet-ups, my cough was not able to recover. still coughing away and will see a doc to night again.