2 additional hands seem to be good but apparently not

wat is it like to have someone whom u see all days but yet wif thinkings and habits different? wat is it like to have that someone who does not support u? wat is it like to have that someone become ur enemy? So scary rite.

may God bless that someone.

By His Grace

in wilderness for almost 2 months. crying to God to quench my thirsty but seems in vain. i know it's my heart and not bec God din speak to me. but really thank God for today. stream of praise (SOP) came to worship in noon bef our sanctification svc at nite. without hesitation i applied for leave, though i will be attending alone and work is piling up. i am really thirsty.

thank God. HIS presence is so STRONG. tears rolled down my cheeks while i repent my sins and commit my weakness Him. He shows and guides me in my struggles, including ministry and my low self-esteem. i feel tt the stone in my heart is being lifted up. really...the worship is marvelous. SOP teaches us a lot in worshipping and we have fun. I really love it. we dance and even form a long human train worship and dance around the hall. how amazing. beside worship, SOP preaches on "attitude on worship". it really touches my heart bec i know my weakness in servicing Him. Few key phases: Attitude determines Altitude, Obedience, Fear God, Teacherable and Willingly Heart, Have Fun, By his Grace we can serve. Dont take things personally. I am really thankful bec my spirit in my rekindled. Thank you God.

In sanctification svc, we have our communion. this is the first time again to feel the STRONG Love from God. again tears rolled down my cheeks, reminded how loving and sacrificing FATHER i am blessed with. His love is so uncondition and how can i reject Him. Thank you Lord Jesus and Holy SPirit for teaching me.

By God's grace, i am thankful for He will never leave me as long as i turn to Him always. thank you deep from my heart.

a special day

today is so special...

after my morning jog, i saw a couple about 50 years old. the wife sat on the swing n the husband took photo of hers. how sweet rite...

then came across many wonderful and meaningful phrases to remind me once again
1) success is measured by the degree to which our hearts are transformed thru an OBEDIENCE to Jesus Christ.
2) You don't want to provide fish but teach others to be the fisherman
3) Faith is a gift from God but is also a CHOICE
4) Faith comes from internal work with Holy Spirit and reading of Bible
5) Are u tempted to believe that following Him will lose many of the good things. It's not true - see the life of Ruth

finally, my prayer was answered on sourcing for apartment in michigan. 1st gotten a list of sublet after 1 week of waiting and 1 subletter replied my email thou i am still considering bec the rent is quite high and is a bit far fr school. pray for many replies with lower rent and nearer to school.

today is definitely special bec today is Good Friday. A day to memorate the cruxification of JESUS CHRIST. Without Him dying for our sin, our purpose of life would be meaningless. But at times, we take for granted and so it's a day to remind us once again. surely, we believe and remember even w/o this day.

which direction you are heading

is your mind full of questions? no answer? can't hear anything? feeling extremely low and disappointed? started to compare and envy with others? disappointed with your creator?

how to find the answers? many nights of searching for answers...it's still so quiet. will you ever find the answer? finally, you found the answer - the one who can provide you the inner joy and peace. in fact, you know the answer almost 8 years ago. but the stubborness and human side of you purposely ignore the answer.

but at times, you just forget the answer again...just like a roller coaster. but do remember to always revert back to the answer

grace and strength upon HIM

already lost count how many days since i started to cough...but my HIS grace and strength, I will have speedy recovery bec need to archor club. most imptly, dun spread my virus to the children.

am i that free

hmm...am i that free to start a blog...my young friends triggered me off to start writing and this is my first post to try it out...thanks friends...

had a memorable weekends - gotten angry of one whom i don't know how he defines and treats our friendship. well i guess my expectation is too much. then met up wif old friends, chatting and laughing away. he is still so gentleman and really missed the old days but now-3 cheers to our friendship.

wif all the meet-ups, my cough was not able to recover. still coughing away and will see a doc to night again.